“And when he got into the boat, his disciples followed him. And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves, but he was asleep. And they went and woke him, saying, “Save us, Lord; we are perishing.” And he said to them “Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?” Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sean, and there was a great calm. And the men marveled, saying, “What sort of man is this, that even winds and sea obey him?” Matthew 8:23-27
I was supposed to go to kickboxing this evening. I am absent minded and forgot my gym bag at home, by my door. So I told my co-worker I’d go for a run when I got home. Then I drove near Radnor Lake, so I stopped. Radnor is always a great place for me to talk with and hear from Christ. I figured a three-mile mall-walk would be grand, after all it’s the perfect evening for it.
Today the first two and a half miles were me throwing a tantrum. There are a lot of ‘heavy’ situations in my life right now. I have a lot of brothers and sisters here in Nashville going through some of the toughest situations and it just gets heavier and heavier. I was fed up and Christ was going to hear about it. It’s very difficult to walk quickly and not choke from tears. There was a lot of pleading on behalf of my friends and family. A lot of ”What the hell are You really doing?” My rant continued into my own frustrations.
You see, my brothers, sisters and I are like the disciples in this passage. Christ got in boat, we followed him there and now there is a storm raging. And for me, on this day, it felt like He is asleep. Others easily rest with Christ. Others trust if Christ is resting then it’s the best thing we can do. I’m not like that…yet. I’m the one waking him up saying “SAVE US! It’s too much! We cannot handle it! Could you wake up and do something already?”
In the passage above, Christ asks the disciples about their faith and then says to the storm “be still.” He did not use those words with me. Instead He said “I have been faithful in every area of your life. You have story, after story of how I have personally been faithful to you - why would I not be faithful in these other areas of your life?“
With those words the storm that was raging in my head and my heart was quieted. I have no answer to that question. As he has been in the past, of course he will be in the future. Why do I doubt? Because the waves seem to be bigger than the boat today. They are not bigger. And doubt is routed in fear. Perfect love casts out fear.
Be still dear ones – of course He will be faithful. It’s who He is.